Well I did what I have been telling people not to do! I was disappointed in my Fran time (4:11) when it was over a minute PR. How dumb does that sound. I was comparing it to other peoples times (2:21, 2:35, 2:46). I was not happy because I was not close to their times. How many people have done that? Trust me probably everyone. I need to "listen" to my own words.
I learned a big lesson that day. I am not them, I will never be them, I am only me. I need to only compare myself to myself and once I realized that I was really happy with my time! It is really hard not to look at other peoples times and try to beat them. Its frustrating when you don't and you feel like "man I should really be right there next to him or her." You have got to look at what you did, did you get better, have you improved since last time, and so on. These are the things that will make your life so much less stressful. I have put myself in that situation before where all I was doing was comparing myself to people and I actually started to get worse. I was not me, I was trying to be someone else. Its hard not to do that, I know once in awhile I will do it (like I did with Fran) but most of the time I am just having fun. When I do that and tell myself I can only do the best that I can do, then their is no stress.
I have been pushing myself pretty hard in workouts lately, so I decided to Video tape myself doing Fran. It was a huge eye opener, because I saw exactly the point in which I turn on the off switch. I was more than halfway done with the workout and looked at the time and saw that it was 2:15, instead of thinking yes I am killing my old time, I saw that I was going to get no where near 2:30 or 3 minute mark. This just killed me for the rest of the workout. Stupid, but I learned a huge lesson that day. Focus on only what you can do and not what other people are doing.
This does not mean that you should not strive to do what other people are doing, but realize that it will be slow and steady and you will get there if you truly want it. Like me I truly want to be on that team for regionals. Keep working and listen to yourself!
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